I think the dream catcher in my wallpaper is working. Lol. Despite bad feelings yesterday, my dream was wonderful, hence a really good morning 😊
After hours of thinking and processing, I’ve realized only now that I have been (once again) used. How surprising!
And I can’t seem to find it in me to hate the user bastard. The only reason I can see here is that the person is confused.
You know, you could have just told me. I could have helped you figure yourself out. But you chose to use me instead. Whatever you’re confused about, I beg you please don’t involve me any longer. I refuse to get hurt by someone like you anymore. I think you’ve given me too much to bear, too much to think about. I never did anything to you as far as I remember. I have been consistently nice to everyone. I try to be. Always. And if I think about it clearly, we haven’t really talked that much. I don’t think I really know much about you. So I find it hard to understand why must you do this to me. Why you had to do that? I have always wanted to ask. But I guess I’ll never know why because I really wouldn’t want to talk to you. I don’t hate you. I can’t get mad no matter how I try. I just don’t want to.
And so from now on, I resolve that I stop thinking about it, stop tolerating everything and learn to actually speak up, stop myself from being taken for granted damn it!
I was expecting to attend 3 weddings this year, 2 of my cousins and my brother. But looks like they are all having troubles and now only my brother is (somehow) sure (?). I hope they all work it out though.